Flying

[Moon-chan!]

I think, on ACo, my blog is gonna be the only place I actually don't talk in third person... It'll be hard, I'm so used to talking third person it even slips into my day to day conversations.

To me, it wouldn't seem right to start my blog without mentioning Alvin.
Those people who were on ACo during the short nine months when I had Alvin probably knew him from his many appearances in my posts. It was one of his favourite things to sit and watch me putz away on site, posting everywhere or trying hard to beat Kyo's Bloody Pingu high score. It's hard to believe I almost did too.
When Alvin died, I took a short hiatus. Aside from school, I didn't really have the motivation to do anything for about a week. It astonished me that in nine months, a little guinea pig had grown on me so much as for me to call him my son. And, after his death, every where I looked I seemed to find reminders of him. Even on ACo, I saw only those posts in which I had mentioned him.
I wrote an online epitaph for my Alvin on ACo 1.0. It was one of the last posts in my blog before ACo became sick. Now that she's all better (and happily updated), Alvin needs his epitaph back.
I miss him still and, quite honestly, I doubt I'll ever stop. He was the first pet in our household to belong solely to me, rely solely on me. It was so hard to lose him and, still, his memory brings tears to my eyes.

As is, Jennifer's Body is calling and I must be off. I'll be back! ^^

[Moon-chan!]

Growing up, there's stages to a child's relationship with his/her parents. When you're little, you rely solely on them and trust them with everything. They could be telling you the single most biggest lie and you would believe it.
But as that child reaches teenager-dom, s/he starts to question the world and question his/her parents. Fights become more than the child wanting the infamous "it" and the parent refusing. Sometimes, fights become more frequent.
I think that parents don't always realize that what they say can hurt. Oh sure, my mom tells me all the time that when I get angry, I say things that hurt her and my sister and my dad and just about everybody around me. But I don't really think she realizes that what she says hurts just as much.
As an honors course senior overloaded with homework, trying to pass her classes but failing miserably, I feel beyond swamped. I am, in fact, failing two much needed classes. It feels as though I'm drowning in a sea of homework, trying desperately to keep my head above the water (paper). Unfortunately, arms get tired. And mine are worn.

I'm off to try again to improve my French grade by using the learner I have. Something akin to Rosetta Stone. Ja ne!

[King Kyoniedas]

I'll be reading...nice on the first couple

Relationships are a pain sometimes

-Kyo

[Moon-chan!]

Accidents are not fun.
I've been in numerous almost-but-not-quite accidents. The kind where you're driving down the street and somebody runs a light or a stop sign. Or maybe they just aren't paying attention and try to shift lanes on top of you.
The last accident I was in... well kind of... was when some idiot lady in an SUV rear ended my mom's Pontiac GT. Horrible. It was such a pretty car...
So this morning, I'm driving to school. Somewhere in the back of my mind is a little voice saying, "You should wait for the window to clear. You can't see very well." But in all my teenage, self-centered idiocy, I figure I can see well enough. Besides, the defrosters on so that'll clear up the window. And I'm just too annoyed at my sister for not getting out of the car to help me clean off the windows in the first place to care very much.
Guess who ends up hitting a mailbox and smashing in the blinker on the back of the outside rear-view mirror on her mom's car?
So when I first got my license, my parents both drilled it into me that if I ever got into an accident, no matter if I hit a deer or ran over some old lady with her walker, I would lose my license. If the cops didn't take it, they would.
So obviously I'm distraught. There go all my plans for the rest of my life. I'm broke! How the hell am I supposed to fix the damage to my mom's Civic Hybrid, let alone buy my own car!?
Now, apparently, I still get to drive (though how, I have no clue) and things might be ok. If I stop being "stubborn and realize that it's no big deal." Cause, you know, a thousand dollars worth of damage is "no big deal."
What hurts the most, I think, is that the first question out of my mom's mouth was not "Are you ok?" but "What happened to my car?"

I don't think I will ever understand my parents...

[Moon-chan!]

Being the "ever-attentive" poster that I am, I have decided to update this old, dusty thing.
I remember my last blog being the infamous hang outs for my spots. What the rest of the world would call poetry but I deem not ready. Therefore, they are spots of my mind written on paper. Hence, spots.
But I find myself not writing as much as I once used to. As much as I probably should. Not for lack of idea, oh no. I have plenty of ideas. Just... no way to word them correctly.
Also holding me back from plaguing ACo with my constant presence is my insane clumsiness. I don't know why he thought of it but when my father custom built my computer desk, he set a piece of plexi-glass on top as the covering for the main desk part. While useful to jot quick notes to myself in Sharpie, to be later erased by nail polish, it also has very sharp edges that easily cut. I know this because I've done it.

Either way, my warm bed is calling to me with promises of sweet dreams and deep sleep. Considering I have school in 9 hours and I've been needing more and more sleep as the months progress, I regret to inform that I'm off. I do intend to wake up this dusty blog and post more often. I have to. Must give the ACo cast something to read whilst I'm off in Canada away from technology for two whole weeks.

Good night!!! <3

[Moon-chan!]

The chances of this being read are little to none but... I miss ACo so much that I feel the need to post here. Just because it's such a good place to jot down my thoughts.

I woke up this morning, wondering if any new posts had been made on ACo. I fell in love with the site, it being a place for all my teenage idiocy to center. With friends that would become close to me, I walked in to Kyo and Kagura's with soft steps.

As the years passed and ACo changed and grew, then slowly died, I spent more and more time on site, playing games, talking, having fun and making memories. Friends came and went, and I slowly matured and learned more about life.

Now, x years later, I miss the old site I feel I grew up with, and on. I already have an epitaph to my Alvin. I wanted one for ACo. What better place to feature this than on the site itself?

I hope one day that ACo is resurrected, as it has been in the past. It would be nice to hang and chat, play games and role play again.

[Heero]

The chances of this being read are little to none but...

Have faith.


~Heero

[Moon-chan!]

The chances of this being read are little to none but...

Have faith.

I try, though it's difficult. :'(

[Katt]

nyaaa... faith is a funny thing. its there, but can only be felt by the one who has it. so rarely is it rewarded, that's why its called taking it on faith.

but there are people out here still. (just a bit sporadic after a big move over 1000 miles and finding out my computer didnt survive the move....)

[Heero]

Good night...and good luck.


~Heero